Two in Three Days!

Hmmm...feeling a little more upbeat today. I guess it helps to have my meds in me! It could also be that I will be off work for almost a week after today.

My parents and grandma should be in Texas now. They left Wapak yesterday morning at 6:00a.m. (sharp!). No time to waste. They called from just outside Little Rock last night. I can't believe that it's been a year since we have seen them! After going to Wapak three times in six months last year, I needed a break. It will be nice to spend time with my cousins and aunt and uncle too, did I mention they have a pool? Grandma will LOVE being with the 6 great-grandkids! I need to make sure to take lots of pictures.

OK, going to try to get what I need to get done, done.

The Beginning?

Seriously, why do I try to write? I'm not really that good at it, and I don't really have the follow-through to keep it going! To be honest I even clicked away mid-sentence just a minute ago!

OK, so the title, Some Mad Hope, is kind of what I have right now. I think of it as a mixture between hopelessness and hope. Unfortunately it is leaning more towards the hopelessness side of things right now. I am not feeling in control of my life, and I should take the reigns back.

But...do I really want to? Maybe I like to mope and be sad? Maybe I like to isolate myself? Maybe I attract the wrong men on purpose?

How is a person supposed to know? Is everyone meant to be happy?